就職とか

またホンコンの学校にメイルを連絡するつもり。。。お返事をもらうといい。それに、出版社にもアルバイトを求めよう。夏休みにどこにいるかまだ分からないのはめんどくさい。。。友達と計画がまだできないので。就職の以外に、大学院の申し込みのリサーチをしなくていけなきゃ。さあ。。。残る大学生の楽な生活はだんだん少なくなっているんですよ。

でも家に帰ってから、何もしたくない感じがしている。　＝＿＝

back to Brown

i am flying back to Brown today. slightly dreading the journey part, but that temporary liminal period is actually really important in helping you dislocate yourself from one place, feel that sense of alienation and homesickness, and take delight in settling into your destination.

in truth, i can't rouse myself to feel as much as i thought i would. the relief is never as great as you anticipate! and having waited for this day since May 17th, 2008, well, the exhilaration has faded by now; that passionate clinging to Brown has weathered to a steady, calm attachment.

but of course i'm very happy about going back for a bit and catching up with all those non-study-abroaders! it really has been awhile :), though i guess it's not like i don't talk with the special ones every week anyway hahaha.

hope you all are well!! fingers crossed for warm weather, Providence.

birthday love

i am falling terribly in love with Cambridge. Lent term has just been...well, lets just say i didn't have a single unhappy day. (i had many unhappy essaying hours though) and this weekend was wonderful. on friday evening, i had a potluck birthday dinner, and then saturday was spent partly with Rz but mostly with WS.

just for the record i have to list what we had for the potluck! it was quite amazing, food and company-wise. we had for starters - baked feta-cheese pastry (Rz), bruschetta with tomato and olive dip (Rc); mains - Japanese omelette/pizza with prawns, bacon (me), Thai green curry with chicken and rice (Ish and Rb), chicken and potato stew (Rn); dessert - tiramisu cheecake (Rn), and profiteroles (WS). (wow a lot of R-names!) anyway, it was the best birthday feast i've had. forgot to take photos until i cut the cake - stupid stitch. but i'll post them on facebook or up here sometime soon.

well, i now know why Michaelmas term had to be so bad. to pave way for a fresh start to 2009, to the undeserved happiness that i find myself bestowed with. one more week of end-of-term celebrations and meetings (oh, and portfolio completion but my supervisor says it's at least a high 2.1 standard so i'm happy!), and then Brown :). ahhhh how will i cope with all this happiness.

promise to self

i am going to finish writing this damn essay before i sleep. preferably before 2 am. :( never again will i be this complacent about my work. one thing i've realized is that just because i tend to do okay with academics doesn't mean that i have the right to slack off and hand essays in late. i've overstepped one of my new years resolutions about being kind to myself...i'm TOO kind to myself; i delude myself into thinking that all will be fine, when quite frankly, this esssay on aggression in To the Lighthouse and Jacob's Room is quite crappy at the moment.

need to pull through these next days so that i can have fun this weekend (Lovely Choir Recital on Sunday!) and then next week: Portfolio Deadline, Cn's visit (!!!), and formal-ing :). oh back to Brown on the Friday 13th March. yikes. i can't believe i'm going back next weekend; it's just crept up on me like a quiet beetle lol.

okay. will start writing now.

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the Cambridge sky is turning a cobalt blue. i've never seen the sunrise here before; i'm wondering if i should hang around and watch it come up behind all the old colleges and clock tower, or if should try to finish up my essay quickly and sleep.