i am dreading saturday and wondering how the hell i'm going to leave this place. all the vague, far flung ideals about academics and challenges and new challenges are just rhetoric... ...easy to say but hard to believe in. rt has always cautioned pursuit of ideals that are of the past; i really hope i haven't done that in this instance because the losses are just looming higher and higher with each day of happiness and love.
it's so unhealthy to anticipate bad stuff, but i can't help it. i don't want to go home just yet...i want one more year of brown so badly but i've made my decision and just keep hoping that i'll be somehow surprised, and rewarded for this leap in faith, but it just...sucks. there's no other word to describe it. why why why. watashi no sei dake.
Monday, May 12, 2008
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sheeeeeils.
leaps of faith are always rewarded. if yours isn't, i will eat my shoe. you are a brave child, you are!
i don't know how you always know how to say the right think, mich - not that there is ever one right thing to say. but thank you :); i can't say if i'm all that brave, but i am starting to think that leaps of any kind are bound to yield something (sorry for the pun).
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