spring what? and the little mermaid

spring weekend! feels like it's been the weekend for awhile because everyone kinda starts kicking back thursday afternoon... ...sighh i wish this little window of sunniness and imagined freedom would just hold open for a little longer.

i haven't done the typical spring weekend-y thing of concert-going and beer-drinking and whatever else people do, but it has been a wonderful saturday nonetheless. the weather!!! SUN. skirts and dresses. ice tea. bare skin. once the flowers start blooming, Providence will be perfect.

we watched The Little Mermaid after st's bday dinner. i've decided that The Little Mermaid is the most visually stunning of the classical disney canon. the willows in the kiss-the-girl scene, the castle, the underwater 'seascape' - even of Ursula's skeletal lair - were so beautiful and all of us were gushing throughout - kp included, or should i say, especially kp.

watching Disney movies is always such a nolstagic experience. i'm not sure how to describe it, but the process of rewatching a movie is always a doubled experience. you feel your 8 year old initial reactions and feelings wash over you, but simultaneously perceive what's going in the movie with older eyes. like when King Tritons destroys the statue of Eric - my feeling changes when i watch it now cuz there is something unsettling about her idolation of him. oh and i love the scene when she signs her name on the golden parchment that seals the deal with Ursula. and when King Triton sacrifices his crown for her - i'm such a sentimentalist....!

by the way, i'm screwed for this week; don't know if can make it out alive. i keep wanting to give up, to just let the grades slide but how does one surrender such a thing that is, to bluntly put it, part of one's affirmation of self worth. maybe that's overly harsh, but my mind keeps warping back to that one conversation about how maybe i should try to let these small things go. (it's sooo hard though)