time to get serious...

i apologise if this bores everyone else, but i try to write for myself mostly.

MWF
9ish am: good morning sheila! breakfast, news.
10 am: english/city politics reading
11 am: get dressed, errands, emails, snail mail
12 noon: study time and lunchtime!
2 pm: japanese class
3-5 pm: M. city politics studying W. english seminar F. is for fun
In between hours: Dinner, Skype, lolling about waiting for dinner to digest
9 pm-12 midnight: homework, shower, dessert
12.30: relax, sleep!

TTh
9ish am: awake! breakfast, news
10.30 am: city politics lecture
12 noon: japanese class
1 pm: lunch!
2.30 pm: T. groceries Th. library time for work
In between hours: Skype, cook dinner, dinner
9 pm-12 midnight: homework, shower, snack
12:30: relax, sleep~


senioritis has struck and for the past two weeks, i've been doing the bare minimum to stay afloat in classes. not good especially when ox is asking for first-class equivalent which is a GPA of 3.8 or above. i'm incredibly paranoid... what if city politics is a disaster and i get a C, in which case, i am in trouble. actually feeling really stressed about it even though i should be fine with a B for city politics... but still, the amount of work to be done for revision and the final paper is terrifying. this is crazy; i'm a senior, and for the first time in a long time i feel like the bad, naughty student who is falling behind everyone in class :(.

why is it that the older we get, the lazier we become? i don't understand. is it the the increasing amount of freedom and choice we have in terms of interesting things we could be doing with our time? are we more easily distracted in the year 2010 than in the year 2005? how the heck was i able to focus so well for the IB years and dutifully do coursework and exam revision AND volunteer work, volleyball, PAL, yearbook, literary magazine, SAT classes? it's not like i slept more or ate more in high school, so i am just confounded by questions pertaining to sheer energy: where did it come from and how could i replenish it so quickly.

(actually, i can kinda answer that question. in high school, we lived at home so we were fed and taken care of. whenever we were worn out, we always had family right there for support. oh and it was also a lot warmer in Asia so we consume less energy in homeostatic reactions)

stress... ... so that's why i implemented the above schedule a la Cambridge days. part of me secretly enjoys fooling everyone into thinking that i study hard, but after awhile that gets tiring so i should just get on with and do it. i can salvage the city politics grade if i put my heart into it. i just need to invoke the whole Easter Term attitude and WORK HARD. if last year i could study from the English Faculty Library's opening hours 'til its closing hours, and keep up that kind of studying for a month and then write my dissertation after exams, i can do (almost) anything. okay. i can do this. i know we're supposed to enjoy the remainder of our undergraduate life, but i have 2 free weeks in May, and then the whole summer to enjoy, so i must sacrifice a bit of time now.

maybe i should do the bandanna thing... hahaha.