moments of distraction - birthdays and study abroad

i just bought st's birthday prezzies (a belt and beaded necklace to match her spring clothes). excited about her birthday because tn and i have planned a kind of a treasure/clue hunt that involves her going around to friends and having to tell them each something they don't know about her in order to retrieve clues (coded into pictures). these clues shall lead to a somewhat anti-climax of a dinner proposal. lol. but we thought the process would be more fun for her. i love birthdays!

people around me have been feeling blue..
so let me repeat my little inspiration mantra,
let go of anxieties, sing loudly, breathe deeply, laugh freely and love!!

i'm so distracted...by a multitude of things. went on the cambridge site to read the alternative prospectus on Pembroke College and it sounds too good to be true. i really lucked out. but the hesitation and self-doubt come in waves now and then; it's a very internalised thought process that is never fully articulated, perhaps in fear of the realisations that it may potentially precipitate.

but i could write, and think, about this forever.