didn't sleep well last night, dreaming wildly and waking up every few hours. i awoke in the morning thinking, 'who what when how WHERE the hell am i?!' kind of like my jet-lagged feeling whenever i go back to singapore home/hk home/Brown dorm. i also have very little recollection as to what happened last night. that sounds scandalous. i assure you it had nothing to do with alcohol or craziness. i was just writing my essay on conrad. and now i must confront the reality that this has to be finished today! for submission tomorrow.
i have a black-tie Christmas dinner to attend at Wadham College tonight! must. finish.
i think everyone will be happier once i stop talking about Conrad. my fellow Conradians in seminar and i have had many laughs this term talking about our love/hate relationship with him, how we spend all our time with him, and that we need some time off and perhaps try out long distance...? it was certainly obsessive, as evidenced by our facebook activity. (how sad, i know. but also cool in a nerdy way...) i certainly spend more time reading every single letter, essay, short story, novella, and novel he's written than i do hanging out with friends. but i guess that's the way it should be in graduate school? not sure.
anyway, so i can't wait for my holidays to begin!!!
to motivate myself - here are the things to look forward to over the winter vacation:
- tonight's Christmas dinner
- physically submitting this to Exams Schools tomorrow and knowing i've got 25% of my exam DOWN
- fortune-telling party this Friday with staircase friends
- meeting up with An this weekend
- all the little errands i must run: posting cards, returning all the library books, etc.
- Christmas reunion in Cambridge
- London with Pembroke people :)
- food and sleep and books not written by Conrad
okay okay now back to mediated skepticism!
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