Thursday, April 14, 2011

“因為幸福沒有捷徑 只有經營 ”

最近威伸介紹了這首歌給我聽:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oT6Y4d7cA2A&feature=related
歌詞很有意思,希望認識中文的朋友都會欣賞。

the song linked above is sung by Christine Fan. difficult to translate the lyrics in the blog title...literally, it's "because happiness has no shortcuts, only a business/enterprise". in other words, "there are no shortcuts to happiness, as it is a business/an enterprise to manage everyday".

anyway i usually don't warm to mandarin songs, but this belongs to the rare few which are not emo :P. its lyrics are interesting, even funny:
我願意 每天在你身邊甦醒
就連吵架也很過癮 不會冷冰

(I am willing, to wake and sleep beside you every day,
to the point that even fights become exhilarating (fun), not frosty/cold)

i think this resonates with me especially because people generally are tempted to resort to 'the cold shoulder' in arguments. and i have always hated being the recipient of this tactic, often deployed by friends out of selfish moodiness. so yes, friends. next time you are angry with me, please tell it to my face, haha! i have probably done the same with you and inadvertently hurt you (sorries...) but we're all adults now. there's no need to play games anymore.

anyway so i'm on vacation here in singapore! the city hasn't changed that much, save for the crazy malls and further development of the waterfront. high school and university friends are also pretty much the same, and this time around, most seem happier :), somehow more settled. a lot have proper jobs now, which is impressive. haha i feel like such a kid, still living on parental allowance, still tackling work, still living in a dorm... can't wait to get my first (salaried) pay-check!

singapore life is a comfortable life. although working hours can be long, and many work more than 5 days a week, life here is cushioned by city conveniences like a great transport and healthcare system, and a plethora of shops. the streets are safe and clean; the weather, generally predictable! if you have friends and family here, you are lucky; they are located at most an hour of commuting away. no natural disasters, no political insurgencies, low levels of crime. i know that i am generalising the life of the upper middle class, but even when it comes to the low and middle class, the government does provide a safety net. (unlike in the US where the poor, the uneducated, and the ethnic minorities are pretty much left to their own devices.) it's a small enough country where stability will always reign... ...

i wonder when or if i will settle more permanently here. a lot of my peers are returning to singapore to work, and i can imagine that they are happy here. i wonder if that would be the case for me. could i do without the city life? studying abroad in college is one thing, living abroad in a city without family and a close network of friends is another. i don't know. but what i know is this - ever since i went to Brown in 2006, i have found singapore a little stifling. hong kong is kind of the same; well, there is a greater variety of landscape over there, and i think its food is much better than Singapore's :P, but it's still the same old city bubble. and i'm not sure if i want to live in a bubble, although i am scared to venture beyond it. Brown was a bit of a bubble although i actively got off college hill in extracurricular things; Cambridge was certainly a bubble, Oxford, similarly so although a bigger one. i dunno. but i guess i will see what it's like to get out of the college bubble come summer, when Life Uncertainty hits and i have to find my own way...

Sunday, February 27, 2011

a dream job

i've never thought of myself as a business person, but lately i keep dreaming of owning my own tea shop or cafe. it would be lovely and sunlit, and serve homemade cakes, salads and afternoon tea sets. the menu might change daily depending on what was baked that morning/last night. the drinks would be fruity sodas, tea and coffee. people would get complimentary glasses of water without having to ask. the interiors would be delicately designed, and there would be a poetry wall for people to scribble poetry and to contribute to lines of a running poem in the making.

maybe the theme of the place would be books, but i don't know how marketable that is and how as at theme that translates into the food. maybe all the foods and drinks could be named after books and authors? you know, having some red-orangey drink called 'The Sun Also Rises', lemon cake as 'Oranges Aren't the Only Fruit' hahaha, a tea set called 'Sense and Sensibility', or a couples one called 'Romeo and Juliet', or the caesar salad being 'Julius Caesar' (lamee). but then not all of the names would be so eyeball-rolling worthy. some could just be named after famous writers - maybe biographically related to what those authors actually enjoyed. oh and i would sell books too, both new ones and second-hand books.

my maternal grandparents ran an eatery/cafe in HK in the 50s-70s, serving HK style breakfasts and teas (a lot of toast, noodles, bo-lo bao) and drinks and ice creams. they were able to earn a living from it because of the strategic location - it was by the harbour near a petrol station or some kind of construction site, so all the workers would go there for breaks, and my mom and my aunts/uncles used to run deliveries, and serve in the cafe. they lived right next to the shop, so it was convenient. but although this all sounds very nice, i understand that the food and beverage industry is ruthless, and their turnover high. but it seems like an interesting kind of life... especially if you keep it small enough so that you can interact with customers and try to develop good relations with them. the problem is then that you can't utilise large economies of scale to keep costs low. i guess the thing would be to make sure that i own that property so that overhead costs are minimalised. but that would first mean earning enough to have one's own house and own's own shopfront!

you know, just something to dream about, to remind me that one can really do anything...

Thursday, December 16, 2010

done with michaelmas term!

submitted my exam essay. 2 months of work: complete! it feels great relegating all the books to the floor. my desk is now (temporarily) cleared :). Christmas dinner last night was nice, and i'm looking forward to enjoying a quiet holiday here. i feel bad for my parents that i am not going back home this vacation for the whole 'empty nest' must be strange, even lonely at times. but to me, it feels right that i stay. of course having WS here means that i am happy to be here. but it's also about not having to travel and spend on flights, and about being near the library so that i can read and research over the holidays. Hilary term (January-March) is going to be worse.


the relief will never be as great as we had anticipated, but that's okay :).

some Romantic music by Chopin to share - this is what got me through the essay:

Chopin's Nocturne Opus 9, No. 2

Chopin's raindrops

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

the last stretch

didn't sleep well last night, dreaming wildly and waking up every few hours. i awoke in the morning thinking, 'who what when how WHERE the hell am i?!' kind of like my jet-lagged feeling whenever i go back to singapore home/hk home/Brown dorm. i also have very little recollection as to what happened last night. that sounds scandalous. i assure you it had nothing to do with alcohol or craziness. i was just writing my essay on conrad. and now i must confront the reality that this has to be finished today! for submission tomorrow.


i have a black-tie Christmas dinner to attend at Wadham College tonight! must. finish.

i think everyone will be happier once i stop talking about Conrad. my fellow Conradians in seminar and i have had many laughs this term talking about our love/hate relationship with him, how we spend all our time with him, and that we need some time off and perhaps try out long distance...? it was certainly obsessive, as evidenced by our facebook activity. (how sad, i know. but also cool in a nerdy way...) i certainly spend more time reading every single letter, essay, short story, novella, and novel he's written than i do hanging out with friends. but i guess that's the way it should be in graduate school? not sure.

anyway, so i can't wait for my holidays to begin!!!
to motivate myself - here are the things to look forward to over the winter vacation:
- tonight's Christmas dinner
- physically submitting this to Exams Schools tomorrow and knowing i've got 25% of my exam DOWN
- fortune-telling party this Friday with staircase friends
- meeting up with An this weekend
- all the little errands i must run: posting cards, returning all the library books, etc.
- Christmas reunion in Cambridge
- London with Pembroke people :)
- food and sleep and books not written by Conrad

okay okay now back to mediated skepticism!

Friday, December 3, 2010

while waiting for dinner...

i had my manuscripts transcription exam today. (it went okay. the handwriting - DH Lawrence's - was tough to read but i should be able to pass...)
this was for my Palaeography class, which is basically a handwriting reading/transcription exercise where we look at original manuscripts of authors and try to accurately and constructively represent what's on the physical page in a transcript. we try to reproduce what's on the page - everything from the words, scratch marks, page numbers - and represent the reader the author's process of revising the piece of work (so we also transcribe their omissions, additions, revisions, etc) and highlight any other editorial or interfering work that has been done on the manuscript by later readers and collectors of the manuscript. so for instance, one week for homework, i had the privilege of looking at a (photocopy) of a page from Tolkien's LotR, and had to transcribe the text and Tolkien's own sketch! in addition to footnotes and such, we're expected to also write a mini essay on the manuscript transcription... things we've noticed about the manuscript, idiosyncrasies of the author, paratextual elements, where it's from, who it's by... etc.

basically it's this kind of thing, if you want to have a go! http://www.nationalarchives.gov.uk/palaeography/tutorial/default.htm

apart from the exam, i've been really unproductive lately. i blame it on the weather because the cold keeps me in my room, huddled near the radiator which i recently borrowed from the college. (central heating is practically non-existent...) yes the cold makes us apathetic to everything really... even Christmas carols, fancy dinners (who wants to wear black tie in this weather?) , etc. how i will survive another english winter i don't know but i think it will involve a lot of food all the time and a lot of soups!! watercress and pork rib soup :)

on the whole it seems like everyone, around the world, is super busy. i wonder if this is just a trait of 'modern' life that everyone feels so incredibly busy all the time and neglects keeping in touch. (i forget, too of course, but i think i tend to send out a lot more messages to see how people are doing but replies are scarce!) but i guess keeping in touch doesn't necessarily equate to 'caring' about someone, to put it bluntly.

anyway, it is 5:25 and time to get dressed for dinner! have a good weekend friends~