going to be stronger

it's ironic that the supposedly most relaxing of semesters has thus far been the most psychologically taxing (and it's only week 1). but i think i'm finding my way through the muddle with each day, and well, when one hits near rock bottom, the only way to go is up~

sidenote -- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93jxkqG0gWc
the track 'Married Life' from Disney/Pixar's Up!

i am learning to deal with my fears, to face uncertainty with an open mind. there is no single path to stability, happiness or success. if our endeavors are not successful this time around, there will be other roads and doors; we just have to remind ourselves that with time, it will all make sense. i am not alone; but even in times when i feel most alone, i need to be able to tolerate and even take delight in that solitude.

thankfully certain people are also actively helping me. i am grateful to Rt for her long-distance calls this past week; i think i needed an old friend, someone who knows me like the back of her own hand and someone who also knows WS, to reassure me. i am forever grateful to WS for his strength, generosity of spirit and love, and emotional maturity. and i am grateful beyond words to my mom who can make me feel better about anything.

all of that stuff aside, this semester is going to be more relaxed in terms of classes. there is more to life than learning :P! am taking City Politics, an English seminar on Herman Melville, and Japanese. i like the variety: one HUGE lecture class taught by a brilliantly engaging professor, one small intimate sit-around-a-square-and-talk-about-melville for 2.5 hrs class, and the happy, familiar camaraderie of a language course :). <-- Tn rejoined jap - such courage after a 1.5 year 'hiatus'! it's been great having her there. it's our last undergraduate semester, so ganbarimasu~